I've been hatching my escape
Since the moment before I came back
To your ways.
Somehow I'd not seen it before
Or maybe I'd just lusted after the scraps
Of the way you can be
How it would sustain me
Even through words that cut and I'd pretend not to notice
Bruising on my hopes
And swollen eyes.
But I was someone
With your shadow giving me a place to be.
And I taught you how to keep me
The reasons that I needed to hear
To keep living this fiction.
Fear of not knowing any different
Keeping my timid imagination silent.
So I've been replaying what I'll say to you
And your disbelief
The moment you realise
You've been helping me leave
Since the moment we met.