Hi.
I’m a workaholic and I’m 6-months sober.
I’m a perfectionist in-recovery.
A serial over-committer living one day at a time.
I’m detoxing from hustle-culture.
I’m doing a burnout & busy-ness cleanse.
I’m intermittent fasting from consuming misdirected materialism.
I’m on my annual retreat from being bullied into what I should value and how I should live my life.
I’ve checked-into a day-treatment clinic for addicts to dopamine drip-feeding.
I’m protecting myself.
Without viscious clandestine energy-protecting guerilla tactics I’ll over-reach, wired to say yes, default complicit. Despite myself. My fault not yours. Out of the box settings. First and second Noble Truths.
If I don’t withhold enough energy to be able to withstand peer pressure, real, imagined, self-imposed, I will push past where I can resist more pushing.
Continued use despite adverse effects.
If I’m not tooth-and-nailing my boundaries, I can’t protect me, I can’t help you.
If I’m operating puffed, just getting by, grinding, and I can’t see it or I won’t take responsibility for it, I’m not leading anymore, I’m not serving my people I’m neglecting them. I’ve just lost my quiet voice perspective that sees clearly. I will come to regret that when it’s middle of the holiday break catching up on reflection.
Maybe I can maintain my perspective through the next busy-period. Probably I’ll tumble into addiction again. I’ll convince me, then I’ll convince you, that it’s ok this time, it’s the last time. I promise.
Step 1. Admit it.
Continued use despite adverse effects.
cjG
#mygroundtruth
